You Raise Me Up

I would like to dedicate this song to my beloved grandma...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1_MydgRFZw&feature=related

...You Raise Me Up...
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

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Thanks for everything. I am glad that I have finally dreamt of you last night. You told me that you wanted to have some mooncake. I know you love mooncake and it means a lot to me as you left on the day before mooncake festival.

Po po~ I will miss you whenever I see a full moon.

May you rest in peace. Your advices, your teachings and everything would be always retained in my heart.

Love,
Kityee

I need to SPILL...

I have to say that I never once feel so in my life. It's my first time! I really have had enough! I need to give up!!! Yes, i am giving up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It causes me to have sleepless nights, restless days, saturated brain, pimple growing, etc.. What's even worse is that my menstruation goes really wrong since the semester commenced!

This is the sign of being stressed, right?

I seriously have no idea how to remember every single details provided in the notes. Not to say memorizing them, but being able to give one or two examples when it comes to answering questions in exam. There're like n processes in the notes that I need to take note of. How on earth am I going to remember one example for each process/ cycle? The worse part is each process is specific! (e.g. Initiation of transcription requires a specific transcription factor). Tonnes of abbreviation! How to remember???????

Feeling more and more stressed when I have been reading and revising but it ends up nothing goes into my brain. :(

Never feel so demotivating before!

:(

I am not happy! Anyone could hear me??

Argh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!

I do not want to be here anymore.

:(

R.I.P grandma

The day has finally come.
I knew it would happen.
Yes, I expected that and I was kinda calm when I was informed about this news.

It was during my recess week. Undecided, uncertain.. I was not sure if I should return home to pay my last respects. I had tests, assignments, projects awaiting me and they were all due in the following week. On top of that, I had such feelings not to accept the fact that you have left...

Been struggling... ... to return or not to...

Anyway, I am glad that I had made it for you. I see it as a relief for you since you suffered a lot. Rest in peace, grandma. You will always be remembered.

Those precious time that we had spent will remain as a great memory for me.

Life cycle

Everything on earth would have its end.

Plants, animals, natural resources, energy... and so do humans.

I study Science. I should understand this. Yes, I do. But..

I do not know. I really do not wish to wake up one day and realize that you have left us. That would be too sudden although I would have expected that.

Struggling.. to accept or not to? We have to.

I hope you could leave peacefully, if you have to. I will miss you!

:'(

Wisdom tooth

Wisdom tooth, the name sounds glam.

Wisdom tooth is named such a way for it usually grows from the age of 16-21 years old, which has been termed "the age of wisdom". It erupts improperly and it may become the breeding ground for bacteria, and the worst part is it can decay the neighbouring tooth!

I had one started growing since Form 6 and I have finally got it extracted in this year after my 21st birthday. Before the extraction, I was asked to take a X-ray image of my teeth. The dentist told me that the one on the right (which has been extracted) was quite visible. And, he also told me a bad news- the one on the left was very near to the gum. That means it will start growing SOON!

Yes, it starts growing now. :( Too bad, I don't wish to visit the dentist again for wisdom tooth extraction. The past experience was too suffering! I experienced non stop bleeding for 12 hours after the surgery and I couldn't eat for a week!

Wisdom tooth, I hate you! I seriously feel that you are stupid for you are useless and so insignificant!

Err.. Arghh!!!!!


Wisdom tooth! Please stop causing pain~

HATE double standard!

It's still considered the exam period as I have one paper left.

What drives me to study so hard for the upcoming paper would be the fact that, the day to return home is getting closer and closer. I have decided to return on the 8th May 2010.

There are so many bus services/ companies around but I chose Aeroline to travel instead. The primary reason is because alighting at the Mines would be nearer to my home. Ok, so i tried to book a ticket online. However, I noticed something with regard to the payment mode, as it only shows credit card and I don't have one. Without further hesitation, I called to ask them if they could accept debit card as well, but the number that is provided was not contactable at all. So, I wrote them an email regarding this matter. I urgently need to know as I need to plan to go there personally to purchase the bus ticket, if debit card was not accepted for online transaction.

Well, the following is my complaint to the company which illustrates what has happened. I seriously hate double standard, and no doubt, I have just called to scold them. Yes, I know it's kind of rude but it really drives me crazy! Nothing could stop me from going home! Ha, also, i learn the "scolding skills" from the customers that I have attended when I was working as a call center operator.

"Hi,

I understand that it may take some time to reply the customers' emails. Since it was quite urgent for me to find out the answer, I made calls to the so-called call center several times in a day. It was a total disappointment that the call center (+65 6258 8800) was not contactable at all. I started to wonder if the number is still valid.

Well, I called to another number (i.e. +65 6341 9338) this morning. I was pissed off by how the person attended my call. I asked the same question and guess what I got from her? "You try". What a "good" answer as I personally feel that customer service were to help customers by providing proper guidance but not an uncertain one.

Next, I have tried and found out that it actually works and have got my confirmation page printed. However, I just got this email from you that only credit card is accepted thus far, for online transaction. I am not used to online payment matters and I was totally in doubt.

Again, I called to this number (+65 6341 9338) and to verify if the booking that I have made earlier is still valid. And the staff who picked up the call said yes. So, I am curious to know how could an established company like you could have double standards regarding the same matter. It causes customers to feel unsecured and doubtful with two standards that are actually opposing one another.

I seriously hope that my travel would not be affected because this. I kindly hope that the company would look into this matter and would no longer provide us, the customers, with 2 standards.

Thank you for your attention.

Yours truly,
Lee"

Maybe it is just a small matter to you. But I would just want to freely express myself as I think this is something that they need to improve.

Till then, continue mugging.........

Mugging...

Final exams start in less than 3 days time. Gosh! I have been mugging these days but it seems that my brain is too small for all information. Ha, I am just going to read through and understand them, rather than memorize every single details. If brain power is correlated with age, then i gotta admit that...

I am really getting old!

Just found out that Jay is going to release his new album in May.. Wow.. I have been waiting for this since last year. Hope to listen to his new songs real soon. (:

Gotta return to books and notes. Jiayou, kityee!

Goethe's Faust

Well, Goethe's Faust is a play written by a German poet/ writer/ philosopher. It's divided into two parts.

Why am I suddenly having such an interest to read about this kind of classic literature? hehe.. I won't if I am not forced to. It's actually a presentation topic that has been assigned to us. And.. we are going to present it today.

Yeah.. So I will do my practice here. Not an oral one.. but just to show that I am able to explain things and present it to those who have never heard of it before.

Basically, we focus more on the first part of the play because we could find more information about it online. Well, the story begins when a devil has a wager with God to win the soul of Faust (the main character). The God, however, believes that if a person is rational, he will still be himself although he is misled by others. Even at the darkest side, that person will still be able to find his way back to the right path. Then, the devil transforms into a poodle and he follows Faust home. When Faust is discussing a sentence in the bible with his friends, the poodle transforms into a human-being like character. He then tells Faust that he will bring Faust to experience things that Faust has never seen before. Due to some benefits that Faust would gain from the Devil (e.g. ability to attain some knowledge that he is not good at), Faust agrees with the Devil and he signs the pact with the devil, with his own blood. {in fact, this will be explained by one of my group mates}

My parts begin here.. (from a romantic love story --> a tragedy at the end)
Well, after the agreement with the devil, Faust is given a magic potion which turns him into a handsome young man. Faust is having more confidence towards himself now. On one fine day, when he is walking with the devil on the street, he meets with Margaret. He falls in love with Margaret at the first sight. He then demands the Devil to procure her. What the Devil does is to attract her by jewelery. He puts a box of jewelery in her cabinet. Once Margaret discovers that, the innocent Margaret quickly brings it to her mum and finally they decide to donate it to the church. The first attempt has failed. The devil tries the second time. This time, instead of showing it to her mother, Margaret brings it to her neighbour, Martha.. Martha advises her to wear it and gives Faust an opportunity to meet with her. Later on, she gets to meet with Faust at the garden. She confesses her love to Faust. Faust then takes this opportunity to seduce her to sleep together. Margaret actually admits Faust to her room. But they face one problem, that is Margaret's mother is staying with her. In order not to let her mother knows about Faust, Margaret accepts Fasut's suggestion to give her mother a bottle of sleeping potion. Unfortunately, even Faust himself, doesn't know that the sleeping potion is actually poisonous and this is when the tragedy begins.

Later on, Margaret discovers that she is pregnant. She is quite worried about it because she is an unmarried woman. So she approaches Martha and discuss the problem with her. What a coincidence that her brother, Valentine, hears their conversation. He gets very angry with Faust and he challenges Faust for a duel. Eventually, Valentine is defeated and he is killed. After murdering Valentine, Faust runs away with the Devil.

Margaret feels that she is abandoned by Faust. Later, she drowns her new born baby as she feels that there's no hope for Faust to return to her. Due to that, she is found out and arrested for murdering the baby. She is then kept in the dungeon (the underground prison).

After having to know that Margaret is arrested, Faust requests the Devil to save Margaret from death. This shows that Faust still loves Margaret. The Devil gives the guards, again some sleeping potion and put them to sleep in order to get the key to save Margaret. However, Margaret is not convinced and both Faust and the Devil are forced to flee away. Anyway, Margaret's salvation is proven by voices from the above announcing that "she shall be saved". After the rescue, it comes to the end of the first part of the story.

Surprise!

Hehe.. I had an idea to celebrate my sister's coming birthday.

Oh well, since she came to singapore, we don't really have a proper celebration with her on her birthday. This time, since I am here too, my parents asked me to buy her a cake and have a simple celebration with her.

The surprise cannot be successful without the help of my brother in law. Well, I text to him in the midnight and told him about this plan. Lol.. :)

It turns out to be a success eventually. It was not really a proper plan but it was a good one! It was so funny that I went to their house without knowing that they were not home. I went down to the ground floor and tried to call her to "locate" her. It was so dramatic that she went up using another lift after I came down. Lol.. then, my brother in law called me and asked where was I. Later, we get into the lift and reached the "destination". There, my brother in law noticed that the house key was left in the car. Oh well.. again, it's like the storyline in HK drama that we normally watch. He pressed the door bell and I hide at a corner. When she opened the door, my brother in law said someone has come and...
"surprise!", I shouted.

hehe.. It was really a nice one! From that, I realised that sometime things will go on well and smoothly without our expectation or any early plans. Perhaps, when we are having any plan or idea, we don't plan every single details carefully. Leave some space; leave some flexibility for it to go on by itself and perhaps we'll be satisfied with the end result. And this may be another "surprise" that we have never expected!

I'm back..

I'm back in Singapore. What does it symbolize?
Well,
it's a brand new semester
it's time to learn something new and different from previous sem
it's the beginning of more and more suffering (not being negative, but it's the truth)
it's another time when I need to leave my comfort zone


I wish everything will go on well.
I wish it will be less suffering but more of an enjoyment.

Wishing everything and everyone will be fine. peace V

[new target in new sem --> study even harder, and smarter!]

Effort that I have put in.. for my sis' wedding

喜喜

12-12-2009

大喜日！ 哈。。。这天是我家第一次办喜事！ 那天是姐姐的大喜日。大概一个星期前，我已经回到KL。忙着帮忙准备一切，说真的那一整个星期比考试还要忙，每晚只睡5-6小时。。。

可喜的事，一切都已顺利过去。这次的经验，让我体会了很多，也上了宝贵的一课--人性多面看！ 哈哈。。只有家人（指的是家里的那6个人）才明白我这番sarcastic的言论。 LOL！

很多人问我：有一个陌生人成了家里一份子的感觉是怎样的。嗯，我想。。。一开始时， 感觉真的怪怪的。刚开始，觉得大家好像没什么交流；但，到新加坡后，相处时间也逐渐增加了，才发现，原来姐夫还蛮健谈的。 哈哈， 无论如何，只希望姐姐能终身美丽！

请注意: 华人传统习俗有时真的可以与奢侈画上等号。上头仪式祭神的东西也未免太多了吧！